Reflection

 

Today- Sam asked to talk to me about his frustrations with me.  You hear about couples struggling with their marriage when they have a child… and I didn’t understand it.  To be honest I still don’t, but Sam told me he was at his limit today.  Sigh…

We were able to have a discussion- and I’m so happy Sam is the one who brought it up and wanted to talk to me about it.  Usually I have to say, Okay we need to talk.’  We both said our peace to some degree.  At the end he also apologized.  This. is. huge!!!

He usually doesn’t apologize, even when it’s his fault.  He usually doesn’t want to talk about it even when I bring it up.  He has never brought it up himself.  I’m so proud and appreciative of how far he’s come.  

Makes me reflect on myself, have I changed?  Have I made improvements on myself?  If I think back, I feel like I have. I’ve held my tongue on various occasions, I try to pause before I speak, I try not to interrupt when he is talking. 

This is what marriage is, so it doesn’t surprise me or alarm me.  His initial reaction does surprise me but I think it’s just something automatic he thinks and he’s not serious about it.   At least I hope he’s not.  

Sigh….